the beloved of god

"Let your body surrender to the earth. "

As I laid in the corpse position during yoga class, I was deeply struck by being the beloved of god. In our community, we have been talking about this concept. I must confess I keep wishing we could go back to sin or shame or something that is familiar. Being the beloved of god- just as we are- is a tough concept to grasp. I've been working with this idea -trying to live into it.

Laying on the floor loved and well cared for, it hit me. Yes, right here and now I am the beloved of god. I laid there trying to take it into to every cell in my body. It's interesting that when I got out of my head and into my body this basic truth could stir me in a new way. My mind is so limited, my heart is sometimes closed off, but opening the body allows love to flow in a new way.

This idea of being the beloved of god is foreign. We live in culture of striving- look better, set goals, try harder. Underlying all these messages is that we are intrinsically not enough. We are unworthy. For me, this produces a couple of reactions. I spend much of my life dancing as fast as I can to be better. The other half the time, I feel stuck by my unworthiness. It is almost a pass not to be vulnerable. Living into being the beloved of god calls me out of my box -now. The call is not to dance the fastest but the call is to get out there and dance and invite other into the dance.

Namaste.