Worry

I went on a brief trip to Texas to visit my parents. Katie and I also got to go visit my brother’s lake house. It was much fun. In one day she caught 5 fish, jumped off a boat, and learned to play ping pong. It was also the first time she had spent much time with my brother’s boys. They had a great time. I enjoyed it too.

I’m glad to be home. The older I get the more I just like to be home. Bob and I had a lovely afternoon hanging by the pool today.

I’ve really been missing Mary. She is in Mexico for 6 weeks with www.amigoslink.org. It is hard to have her gone and she has been sick during the trip. I am so proud of her. She is working in a small village teaching at a day camp with 2 other high school students.

Since I’ve stopped working I notice that I am worrying more about the girls. I worry if they are safe. I worry if they have the right friends. I worry that I haven’t taught them the “right” things. I worry ….I just worry.

Worry is from fear…fear that things aren’t going to work out …fear that something bad is going to happen. Worry is tiring and draining. Worry never helps things. Most of the bad things that have happened to me were too hideous to even imagine worrying about.

So my goal for the week is to just stop! When I want to worry about the girls I am just going to lift up a prayer of gratitude for the gifts they are in my life. I have no idea if this is going to work. I’ll keep you posted.